Time flies/My biggest fear/That feeling

It's really weird how time flies..
I remember celebrating New Year like it was yesterday,I remember going to 6th grade like it was yesterday..
But I remember yesterday like it was months ago..why is that? I don't get it..
I didn't even notice when 2 years passed,I didn't even notice when almost whole summer break passed..
HOW??
Was I even there? Or am I just like asleep and letting my life pass me by?
I think my biggest fear is doing nothing with my life.When I grow up I really want to be successful and have a family and live somewhere amazing like Italy or France,or maybe Spain or somewhere in USA I don't really know..It's not like I hate living in Serbia that much,Serbia has some really beautiful cities,but I think the reason why people want to live in big cities(mostly teenagers) is the feeling that you can be anyone you want to be,you can have anything you want,it's like someone is telling you 'This is what dreams are made of' and you believe it because you want it that bad. And in Serbia you don't have that feeling,you don't feel you can be successful here,you don't feel like you can make your dreams come true.
Maybe I'm asking for too much,who knows..
I just feel like teenagers in other countries have that perfect life and have nothing to worry about..while I'm here and I will probably waste my teenage years trying to reach something I will never have.
I just want that feeling when you're on the roof of a very tall building or looking out of the window with a view on a whole city and you feel like the city is yours and like the time just stopped and you lose all worries in the world. I want to have that feeling,don't you?

I did nothing all summer/shitty weather/I had fun this summer/make yourself happy

I live in Serbia and it literally rained all summer,it rained yesterday and it's probably going to rain tomorrow..yeah,the point of this post was actually how i did nothing all summer..I'm getting to that part ok? Ok,so I can't blame it all on weather but I can blame some of it on weather right?
I don't know why is weather here worse than it is in London in summer,it should be sunny and really hot,like it was last year and the year before and the year before that..is it because of global warming? I don't know..
Of course I did hang out with my friends this summer,but not as much as I did last one.Almost every time we go outside it stars to rain..so i spent my summer reading books,watching films,listening to music...I can't complain about that, it was really fun,I read some really great books,I love reading books,I love watching films,horrors or comedies, I love listening to music, I listened to Fall Out Boy,The 1975,You Me At Six,All Time Low,Ed Sheeran,Cher Lloyd(she has new album),Panic! at the Disco,and many others..
I'm not sure if I'm going to Greece this year,I should go in August,but my dad has a lot of work and he is not sure if he can take some days off..I hope he can,cause I love to swim,but we don't have a sea in Serbia and this summer were floods here so I suppose the water is not that clean...

Anyway,I just wanted to say even if I did nothing all summer and it wasn't sunny and I stayed at home most of the days,I still had fun this summer.I enjoyed time alone,I enjoyed reading all that books,I enjoyed watching all that movies and TV shows,I enjoyed spending hours listening to music.Maybe my dad thinks I did nothing all summer because I did nothing for school or something productive,maybe the person reading this thinks you can only have fun if you have crazy summer nights,getting drunk and all that,but If it's shitty weather outside,you can have fun in your home,do something that you enjoy and/or makes you happy don't just complain on weather, take things in your hands and make this summer fun for you. You can't just wait for someone to make you happy,you have to make yourself happy.