Paper towns

I read 'Paper towns' by John Green. I really liked it. I like the fact that even Q is in love with Margo there is more in book than just that. I like adventures in book, For me that was more interesting than their relationship..When I was reading that book I really wanted to be Margo and have all that adventures and great stories and just be cool like her. She seemed like some superhero/super agent,but I'm glad that in the end she isn't actually some superhero and she is simply human like all of us. I guess we all have too much expectations for people we have never met or don't know that good.
We get too caught up in those expectations that we are surprised when we realize that they are people too,especially for celebrities nowadays..Anyway, I'm excited for the movie,but I hope they don't ruin it! :) I hope it doesn't become overrated..

Friends after break up?

Today I was thinking can you be friends with someone after you broke up with them? Andddd I'm not sure.
While I was in relationship he told me that he wanted to stay friends even after we broke up and I agreed,but when I broke up with him a month later,we never talked again...I gave him space,I didn't want to push it.
I know it's shitty to ask someone to be your friend after you broke up with them even if they said they wanted to while you were still together so I didn't do it. It was probably hard time for him and I didn't even expect it,but after some time and summer break I guess he should be over it or he maybe hates me now?
I really don't know,he even tried to make me jealous but I wasn't jealous at that girl,his plan didn't work so I guess that made him kinda angry? Maybe he doesn't hate me,maybe he hates the fact that we're not together anymore and that our relationship wasn't so special..I don't want to be in a relationship with him,but I miss being friends.
What do you think can two people be friends after break up?

"Material World"

So today in school we had to write about 10-15 sentences and the title should be "Material World". Some of us didn't know how to start so teacher tried to explain. This was in religion class so teacher said that we should wrote about how some people cared about money and their appearance a little too much and on the other side how some people didn't care that much and cared about God more. She also said that the things material people did were usually sins.

I don't agree with her at all. I think that there are people who aren't material but that doesn't mean they have to believe in God. And material people can believe in God too,but also be obsessed about how they look, how much money do they have and what other people think of them. I didn't like how she put it that way that you can either be material or believe in God. What about people that are neither? Do they exist? I think so..what do you think?

First Day of School/Random thoughts

So today was the first day of school :)
I'm feeling so tired :( I woke up at 6am,but that's super early for me and I stayed up late.
I always do that,stay up really late and feel really tired all day..
Anyway,I think that you got it by now that it was a shitty day for me haha
It feels so weird to be back in school...I'm not stressed about school yet,but some people are already on my nerves..but still nothing changed haha I watched 3 seasons of awkward. in 2 days :)
It feels so weird to see people again you used to talk to but now they don't even say hi..
I ate pizza today,so that's all that's been good today :)
There are not a lot of things that can cheer me up,but music always makes me feel better :)
I'm really worried about this girl in my class,we're really good friends and lately she got really skinny,she lost 12kg and she still thinks she is fat..she wasn't even fat before losing 12kg. I tried to tell her that she is the perfect the way she looks,but she isn't listening to me..any advice?
I wanted to write more but I gotta go,sorry

Time flies/My biggest fear/That feeling

It's really weird how time flies..
I remember celebrating New Year like it was yesterday,I remember going to 6th grade like it was yesterday..
But I remember yesterday like it was months ago..why is that? I don't get it..
I didn't even notice when 2 years passed,I didn't even notice when almost whole summer break passed..
HOW??
Was I even there? Or am I just like asleep and letting my life pass me by?
I think my biggest fear is doing nothing with my life.When I grow up I really want to be successful and have a family and live somewhere amazing like Italy or France,or maybe Spain or somewhere in USA I don't really know..It's not like I hate living in Serbia that much,Serbia has some really beautiful cities,but I think the reason why people want to live in big cities(mostly teenagers) is the feeling that you can be anyone you want to be,you can have anything you want,it's like someone is telling you 'This is what dreams are made of' and you believe it because you want it that bad. And in Serbia you don't have that feeling,you don't feel you can be successful here,you don't feel like you can make your dreams come true.
Maybe I'm asking for too much,who knows..
I just feel like teenagers in other countries have that perfect life and have nothing to worry about..while I'm here and I will probably waste my teenage years trying to reach something I will never have.
I just want that feeling when you're on the roof of a very tall building or looking out of the window with a view on a whole city and you feel like the city is yours and like the time just stopped and you lose all worries in the world. I want to have that feeling,don't you?

I did nothing all summer/shitty weather/I had fun this summer/make yourself happy

I live in Serbia and it literally rained all summer,it rained yesterday and it's probably going to rain tomorrow..yeah,the point of this post was actually how i did nothing all summer..I'm getting to that part ok? Ok,so I can't blame it all on weather but I can blame some of it on weather right?
I don't know why is weather here worse than it is in London in summer,it should be sunny and really hot,like it was last year and the year before and the year before that..is it because of global warming? I don't know..
Of course I did hang out with my friends this summer,but not as much as I did last one.Almost every time we go outside it stars to rain..so i spent my summer reading books,watching films,listening to music...I can't complain about that, it was really fun,I read some really great books,I love reading books,I love watching films,horrors or comedies, I love listening to music, I listened to Fall Out Boy,The 1975,You Me At Six,All Time Low,Ed Sheeran,Cher Lloyd(she has new album),Panic! at the Disco,and many others..
I'm not sure if I'm going to Greece this year,I should go in August,but my dad has a lot of work and he is not sure if he can take some days off..I hope he can,cause I love to swim,but we don't have a sea in Serbia and this summer were floods here so I suppose the water is not that clean...

Anyway,I just wanted to say even if I did nothing all summer and it wasn't sunny and I stayed at home most of the days,I still had fun this summer.I enjoyed time alone,I enjoyed reading all that books,I enjoyed watching all that movies and TV shows,I enjoyed spending hours listening to music.Maybe my dad thinks I did nothing all summer because I did nothing for school or something productive,maybe the person reading this thinks you can only have fun if you have crazy summer nights,getting drunk and all that,but If it's shitty weather outside,you can have fun in your home,do something that you enjoy and/or makes you happy don't just complain on weather, take things in your hands and make this summer fun for you. You can't just wait for someone to make you happy,you have to make yourself happy.

I totally agree!

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